A lot has happened since my last post. I worked. Planned lessons. Corrected essays. Some days were wonderful and some…seemed like there was no way I could get through them. With the start of the new year (I know, you have to think back a few months…) I was reminded of the topic of rest and felt that God was more than gently nudging me to STOP. Really stop. And calling me to a time of rest. Like that book on the Sabbath – except that I need more than one day. Resting deliberately. Resting continuously. Resting to recover. To understand. Resting to heal. To rediscover. I can think of countless times that I told other people to rest. I assured them that God did not love them based on what they did – that they could be confined to a bed and unable to move and God’s love for them would not diminish in any way. But now, as I have had to leave Pakistan and returned to Germany unexpectedly, I find myself having to give myself that same pep talk and choosing to trust God and to rest in HIM.
People always say that its important to leave well. To say goodbye well.
With handing over my lessons, packing up and just trying to get through the little things…I don’t think my leaving really fit that description. But I tried to stop to rest even in the midst of it all. To take in beautiful moments and remind myself that God is in control.
I know my posts from Pakistan were rather scarce. To be honest, I sometimes found it hard to put it all into words. How can you describe a country so vast, so varied, so wonderfully breathtaking and yet so troubled? How can I talk about my work without being too personal regarding a third party? How can I explain what it is like to go back to the country I grew up in…when a lot of the emotions have taken me so much by surprise I don’t even know where to start?
I do not really feel up to sharing much right now…but maybe I will at least get around to adding some pictures to give a glimpse of my last year in this country that I called home for so many years. I’ll do my best.
I’m also often asked what I’m doing now. Now that my nomadic journey has once again brought me back to Germany. I still haven’t come up with the perfect answer. I’m working on it. For now, I simply choose to rest.